A Time My World Changed

Finding Faith


I was there for God,
yet, I came to win you back.

Sitting there, during life-changing worship,
and all I was thinking about was being with you.
I knew you would be with me.
My hope would not dismiss.
I never could imagine you actually wanting to stay apart.

Most don’t find love.
I was the victim.
This love was not patient, nor kind.

You told me no.
You didn’t want any part of me.

I shook. My body ached, shivering uncontrollably. You did not comfort me. You did not lend me an arm for strength or a hug for warmth. You ran ahead. I should have realized that, like always, it’s all about you. Watching you run ahead, never looking back. That is when I realized it.

The day of celebrating love
was my last.
The day I lost mine
but, in choice, gained another.

Tonight you walked out of my life.
This battle is not worth fighting.
There is no looking back.
I refuse to shed another tear for you.

Till this day I was finding love in inadequate places.
I pray, promising to take away all of my barriers,
living a life for my only love,
the one I came for and will leave for.